Fri. April 2 2010: 2:00 am
I have started percocet which the doctors are hoping will be strong enough to replace the morphine drip, as I may be leaving tomorrow and all IV's need to be out, so body can begin functioning on it's own. But tonight was wild, because I fell asleep and didn't have the percocet yet and obviously cannot push the button for the drip when I'm asleep. So when I woke up the pain was off the chart. I could barely stand up to go to the bathroom. So they started the percocet immediately! But then I began to choke uncontrollably, and just went on a whirlwind nightmare ride. So here I am on my blog, as i'm scared to go back to sleep after that experience. It was difficult emotionally and nothing seemed to calm me down, so I put on my Ipod with my CD Healing Harp Meditations playing. It is all about deep breathing, letting go, visualizing yourself in beautiful, calming places. Guess what? It worked! My breathing slowed down, the pain subsided, no more panic attacks. I got my peace back. Thank you God!