March 21, 2010
Today is the first day of spring and is supposed to be happy but it is a sad day for me. Three days ago, I had severe pains in my abdomen. It felt like I was in labor; sharp, shooting, pains coming in intervals. Then I couldn't go to the bathroom, I was completely plugged up. I called my doctor, and he said to go straight to ER. I found out from the CT scan that I had a bowel obstrucsion... the dreaded words that I did not want to hear. The scan found a tumor in my colon which was blocking my bowels and many tumors in my stomach. I haven't had any food or water now for almost 4 days and am on a constant IV drip with morphine and other good stuff to keep my hydrated. Tomorrow (Mon.) I will find out if I'm going to have surgery or just let nature take it's course, which means I would starve to death. I'm now at the point in my cancer journey to completely surrender to God's will whatever that means. I am in a really good hospital: Domincan in Santa Cruz room 2109, if you would like to send a card.